Mexico is always fun. However there is one thing I can’t stand, THE TRAFFIC!!! I wonder how people put up with that? It takes 30 min. to get to the closest place you need to go to.  And that is of course if they are not working on the road or anything like that.  One night I took Daniel to a  birthday party, and I left a bit early to "avoid" the rush hour.  Well, unfortunately my shortcuts were being  worked on and it took me 2 hours to get back home.  It was so horrible! I was so frustated!, I know I will never go back and live in Mexico City, but now I also want to make sure I don’t stay there too long when I’m there. 

I was in Mexico City for only 10 days.  So I wanted Daniel to spend as much time with his cousins as possible. But since I was also a bit delicate with the pregnancy I had to take it easy.   However we still managed to see them quite a bit.  They are so different, it’s like night and day.  They live most of the time indoors while Daniel is bearly inside the house.  I really don’t know what to do with him indoors, he’s not much into painting, or manual things, and even though he has tons of toys, it’s still not enough for more than a couple of hours at a time.  However his cousins hardly ever leave their house, and if they do, it’s only for a couple of hours.  On the weekends it’s a different story, because my brother and his wife are home from work so they take them along everywhere.  And they visit my parents, I guess this is the time when you miss having a house.  Leaving in an apartment can be comfortable for grownups, but for kids it’s like living in jail.  Well, obviously I see it like that with Daniel, because he’s fortunate and spends most of his time outside. Anyway, we still managed to have a good time and enjoy the little ones.  We went to the park and shopping and everything else. 

I like to call them the Einsteins, they are the same age as Daniel and they can count to 10, tell all the colors in spanish and now even in english.  They can do so many things, they have this great nanny that teaches them all this stuff.  Oh well, what makes me comfortable is that eventually Daniel will get there, there is no hurry.   There is time for everything and soon Daniel will start learning that kind of stuff in school.   I must say that our educational styles are so different from American to European or perhaps I should say Scandinavian (I’m not so familiar with the south of Europe’s educational system).  It seems like here in Sweden the kids are more into practical stuff.  I would say that most of their learning is done with their parents until 18 months and then in Daycare, they emphasize in learning by playing.  They have a session for singing, baking, etc.  And they spend at least 2 hours a day outside playing with whatever there is available in the park, from sandbox, tricycles, snow sled, ball or whatever.  The weather doesn’t seem to be any kind of problem for this people, just dress the little one correctly and go for it.

So I don’t really know what it is exactly, all I can think of is that it’s a combination of the changes in the hormones and the fact that I haven’t been able to work out for almost 4 months.  I don’t think I’ve ever gone this far without working out.  I must say that if my last pregnancy wasn’t that much fun, this one seems to make it look like a walk in the park.  I honestly don’t understand why some women say they love being pregnant, really it’s the most boring time of all.  I love having a child and I didn’t mind giving birth etc, but the 9 months just getting bigger and bigger, it’s so mentally difficult.  All I want to do is to get it over with, skip it, just have the beautiful baby and enjoy every second of it. 

However I must say that we tried so hard for this pregnancy that I can’t complain the fact that we made it, and that we are expecting a new baby. I think it’s great, but the waiting is just killing me.  I’m almost starting to think that in the back of my mind I didn’t want to go through the whole pregnancy thing again, and that’s why it was so hard to get pregnant.  Yes, it’s true, I tend to overthink things.  

Anyway, this is basically the big reason why I haven’t felt like writting.  That and the fact that I feel very little sympathy from my husband.  It seems like everyone around me is taking care of me, and watching my every step, EXCEPT MY HUSBAND.  He almost seems to be annoyed by the fact that I’ve been useless in the past 3 months.  I even feel resentfulness from his part.  I feel guilty for being pregnant and having a hard time with it. WHAT’S UP WITH THAT????? While all the mothers help me pull Daniel on the sled on my way back from Day Care, my husband does the opposite.  During weekends if he’s been out with Daniel for 1 hour in the sled, he sees me and says, "hey! YOUR TURN TO PULL!!"

During our trip to Mexico, all he did was complain.  At one point he even made the worst comment ever.  He said, "Well, if you are going to be like this, (meaning that I couldn’t take care of Daniel) then I think it’s best we go back to Sweden now.  Cause I’ll rather watch him over in Sweden than in Mexico".  How could he say that? I wait and prepare a long time to visit my country, my whole year  goes slowly by, waiting for this chance to meet my family and friends.  And now it turns out that since I’m with a delicate pregnancy then I shouldn’t even go there.  Anyway, needless to say, what was supposed to be a stress free vacation all of a sudden after 10 days it became a tense situation for me.  In my mind I already had to work hard to please my husband, and keep him from thinking of going back to Sweden. 

Then I finally come back to Sweden and he wonders why I don’t write in my blog??? well I don’t write because I’m still so frustated, sad, and yes, disappointed that I don’t feel like writting.  I know its serves as good therapy, but I just don’t want to even get more upset.  I got very sick as soon as we got back, it’s been now almost 3 weeks since we arrived and I’m still sick as dog.  I can  bearly drop Daniel at school and pick him up in the afternoon, I’ve been so tired and my cough finally reached a dangerous point, so I’ve been now given penicilin and a bunch of other medicine.  Well, I’m finally starting to feel a bit better, but I’m still coughing and my voice is still with a super sexy tone.

Bueno, pues mucho queda de contar de nuestro viaje, fue de 5 semanas.  Hicimos una parada estratégica en Nueva York por unos días y después estuvimos en la ciudad de México. Nos mantuvimos  bastante ocupados y hasta celebramos el cumpleaños de Daniel con 1 mes de anticipación. 

Pasamos después una semana en Ixtapa y 10 días en los Cabos.  Tuvimos días soleados todos los días y la temperatura fue perfecta durante todo el viaje.  Sin embargo como todo viaje tuvimos nuestros momentos de alegría, frustración y diversión.

Yo por mi lado estuve un poco fuera de acción pues me sangrado llevaba ya 2 semanas y no parecía tener fin, sino todo lo contrario.  Mi doctor en México me revisó bien y me dio una medicina que ayudó bastante, aunque sus instrucciones fueron, reposo, reposo, reposo.  Algo muy difícil de cumplir durante un viaje.  Desgraciadamente no pude ver a amigos ni amigas como me hubiera gustado, pues el tiempo que estuve en México estuve durmiendo la mayoría del tiempo.  Pero si tuve tiempo de estar con mi familia, lo cual fue muy divertido.